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Activism

Day With(out) Art/World AIDS Day is December 1.
Find out what's going on in your community by visiting the listings on our events calendar.


The Estate Project on Exhibit

On December 1st, the Solomon R. Guggenheim Museum in New York will open "Fever in the Archive: AIDS Activist Videotapes from the Royal S. Marks Collection." (The Royal S. Marks Collection of AIDS Activist Videotapes of the New York Public Library resulted from an effort by the Estate Project for Artists with AIDS to preserve the grassroots response of artists and activists to the AIDS crisis.) These vivid and inspiring tapes resulted from the availability of high-quality, relatively inexpensive video and the desperate need to oppose unresponsive governments and mainstream media while jettisoning the video conventions of voice-over, expert testimony and scapegoating. Nine days of screening-programs- through December 9--have been organized by the Estate Project's Jim Hubbard and thematically range from collective action to women and AIDS. In conjunction with the show, Hubbard will moderate a panel discussion at New York University, Room 300 of NYU's main building, at 100 Washington Square East, with Jean Carlomusto, Douglas Crimp, Ann Cvetkovich, Gerard Fergerson and Alexandra Juhasz on December 6th at 7 pm, which is co-sponsored by the Center for the Study of Gender and Sexuality at New York University. (For info about the panel location and screenings, consult
www.guggenheim.org/programs)

A related panel, "Who Cares? AIDS Activism and the Arts," will be held at the New School University in New York, 66 W. 12th St., at 8 p.m. on December 4 and moderated by Artery editor Robert Atkins. Sponsored by the NYU's Vera List Center for Art and Politics, in conjunction with Artery and The Center for the Study of Gender and Sexuality at NYU, it features panelists Gregg Bordowitz, Richard Elovich, Sarah Schulman and Pamela Sneed.
The Estate Projects "1989" benefit-portfolio features work by artists honoring artists including Chuck Close's hommage to Peter Hujar, Nan Goldin's to Cookie Mueller, Lari Pittman's to Liberace and the like. The porfolio, named for the seminal year that Robert Mapplethorpe and many others died, goes on view (and sale) on November 30 at the Curt Marcus Gallery, 578 Broadway, in New York. It can be seen there until January 6th. For additional info call 212-296-3200 or email estateproject@allianceforarts.org
A Virtual Memorial

We used to think of memorials as physical things, deriving much of their meaning from their actual location. But the Internet has changed all that. A German, media-art project a-virtual-memorial is an online site intended to engage the Really Big Questions: Individual and collective responsibility for everything ranging from the Holocaust to the disappeared in Argentina, and from homelessness to AIDS. A Virtual Memorial is a site where artists' projects can be housed or linked, and exchange furthered through the planned forum. There's also art and text works of the month. As its founders remind us, the heart of a computer is memory.

During December, "A Virtual Memorial" showcases works from Artery and the Estate Project.
$4.41-Day Without Oil (Day Without AIDS)

by Jay Critchley

We've imagined and witnessed a Day Without Art. What about a Day Without Oil? Imagine no pollution-airplanes, trucks, cars, Sports Futility Vehicles would sit idle for a whole day. How deeply could we breath? How far could we see? How far could we imagine? Is it a coincidence or oversight that as Big Oil has taken center stage once again-George "Oil My Lips" Bush, Jr- HIV remains in the shadows, under the veil of carbon dioxide emissions? And the rain forests-immune system for the earth- need to breath as well, and maintain the health of the condom-producing rubber trees.

Lubrication. Day Without Oil proposes that we take the money we spend on petroleum consumption, $4.41 each per day-which equals 3.15 gallons per day per person, times roughly $1.40/gallon (averaging in both expensive gasoline, 50% of consumption, and other less expensive fuels such as jet, diesel, heating, distillate, etc.)-and donate it to an AIDS organization, or treat a friend with HIV. A penny saved is a penny earned: $114,660,000 nation-wide for only one day! Simple, and clean.

Is there a connection between the fact that the US consumes 33% of the world's energy with only 5% of its population, and, the fact that in the US there are 110 new HIV infections per day compared with 14,795 per day worldwide? Are we only protecting ourselves and each other from gushing HIV-tainted cum with condoms, only to live in a world without such protection for the other 95%, and from gushing crude? Day Without Oil will be a day to pause, reflect, and collect on what a Day Without AIDS might look like for all living things.
Self-Portrait with Blackeye


Self-Portrait with Juno
John Dugdale's Blue Period

by Patrick Moore

Filmmaker Karen Murray first met John Dugdale in 1998 during the launch of the Estate Project's Virtual Collection. Like so many others who have met the charismatic photographer, she was fascinated by him. The ultimate product of her fascination is "Life's Evening Hour," a 48-minute documentary about Dugdale and his ongoing struggle with AIDS.

It is nearly impossible to tell John Dugdale's dramatic story without falling prey to the sentimental or the overwrought. The former fashion photographer lost most of his sight to CMV retinitis and an HIV-related stroke. Despite this he has evolved a system of working that enables him to develop and further his artistic vision. Dugdale continues to create images in his mind. If they are sometimes realized through his assistant's focusing and composing, the photographs remains unmistakably Dugdale's.

Far from being a weeper, Murray's film nearly inspires envy for Dugdale himself. His physical beauty, talent and grace is likely to astonish every viewer, well or ill. But one suspects that what is now compelling about Dugdale might once have seemed offputtingly perfect. His illness allows for intense viewer identification. Yet even Dugdale seems enthralled with the undeniable drama of his life as seen in his onscreen response to his mother's wish that she could give him her eyes. "I wouldn't want them," he says. " I wouldn't want to interrupt this experience I'm having."

Dugdale's relationship with his mother, Rose, is one aspect of the film that might elicit tears. His portraits of Rose, his siblings and his father are powerful and reflect a family bond that is truly inspirational. An example: When John was small, Rose asked him what he wanted for his birthday. His wish to shop at every nearby antique store was unhesitatingly fulfilled.

As for Dugdale's work, it is a testament to his talent that it transcends the rigid parameters imposed by the cyanotype process. Selected because of its ease and lack of toxicity, the resulting, ghostly-blue-toned cynotypes have become Dugdale's trademark. Extremely emotive, the pictures are aptly described by the artists as "both old-fashioned and modern, existing out of time." Surprisingly, he also likens the color of the pictures to the famous blue pearl reportedly seen in deep meditation. Indeed, it is a feeling of deep serenity that the pictures convey.

Dugdale's subjects are often nude; his own physical beauty and that of his friends is apparently not lost on him. In several scenes in the film, Dugdale disrobes unselfconsciously as if to simply display another object of beauty that fits nicely within the beautiful world he creates in his photographs. The influence of his earlier fashion work is visible in the effortless evocation of masculine beauty that characterizes the photos.

This sometimes complex film offers an usual paradox: That it is perhaps too easy to accept Dugdale's terrible struggles because of his charm and beauty. However, in one of the film's better moments, Dugdale reenacts the terror and frustration of getting lost in his front yard at dusk. As the artist stumbles awkwardly, weeping, across a small stretch of lawn that has suddenly become a limitless expanse, the scale of his accomplishment, both in art and life, becomes apparent.

"Life's Evening Hour" has been seen on Canadian television and will soon appear at numerous US festivals. For additional scheduling information, please contact janrofekamp@compuserve.com

- Patrick Moore is Executive Director of the Estate Project for Artists With AIDS

ACT UP/Chicago "Honored"

by Mary Patten

On Tuesday evening, October 17, 2000, ACT UP/Chicago was inducted into the Chicago Lesbian and Gay Hall of Fame. The Hall of Fame (or "Hall of Shame," as some have called it) is a city-sponsored institution which hosts a yearly self-congratulatory bash attended by the Mayor, the "luminaries" of the mainstream LGBT communities, various local politicians, and the media.

How did it come to pass that an organization, once notorious for hounding Mayor Richard M. Daley for the city's deplorable record on AIDS, was now positioned to receive an honor from him, complete with commemorative plaque and publicity photo?

A few months earlier, some former members of ACT UP/Chicago decided to nominate the organization posthumously, as a way to open up some critical space to address the fact that AIDS is not over, not in Chicago, not anywhere. These folks put out the word as broadly as possible to the surviving members of ACT UP/Chicago still living in the city. A group of approximately twenty people began to meet in September to devise a response.

After much discussion and argument, in a process which both honored the memory of the political culture we had all shared, and which replicated many of the old dynamics of the group--alternately funny, infuriating, and sad --we agreed on a plan of action.

The choreographed routine requires that the inductees sit quietly with the Mayor on a dais while their tributes are read, and then take turns shaking hands with the him while posing for an official photo. We agreed to attend the event, but we decided to act and dress as pall-bearers at the political funeral of a dead organization. We didn't have coffins or other props, but observed a code of dress and conduct consistent with a solemn response. We stood together in two flanks facing the stage, silent until the announcement for the award to ACT UP/Chicago was made. We then took the stage, turned to the audience, and delivered our testimony (see below).

Some in the audience seemed to cringe at the prospect that we would ruin the party by shouting down their beloved Mayor. Instead, we simply ignored him. Maybe our refusal to celebrate what was, at best, an empty gesture, and at worst, an attempt at absorption and co-optation, was the most potent thing we could muster from our depleted arsenal.

The sadness and ironies which riddled the occasion were reinforced by the absence of Paul Adams, one of the most vocal participants in the planning process. Paul, who had been vociferous in arguing against what he saw as an overly-passive approach, wanted us to demand from the city a real and effective safer sex/condom distribution campaign for junior-high and high school-age youth. But Paul was too ill to attend, and his voice was absent. Three weeks after the event, he died.

What follows is the collaboratively-authored text that we took turns reading that evening:

"Some of us are long-term survivors of AIDS. Some of us are struggling for our lives. Others are care-givers and AIDS administrators. Many of us are activists around a host of issues. All of us are former members of ACT UP/Chicago. We have all sustained many losses because of this plague, and have fought hard against it.

"None of us can speak for, or fully represent, ACT UP/Chicago. ACT UP is dead, as are so many of the friends, lovers, comrades and colleagues who gave it shape - struggling hard for years, not just to save their own lives, but to agitate, educate, and organize to end the AIDS epidemic.

"We refuse to believe that these efforts and sacrifices were in vain. Yet, what are we to think when so many of the the same demands and the same needs remain unanswered, after 16 years and millions of deaths? What does it mean that this summer, at a women's conference in Nigeria, President Clinton, who betrayed so many promises to people with AIDS, co-opted the famous ACT UP slogan, '...we need to fight AIDS, not people with AIDS'?

"Some would call this progress. We're not so sure.

"Many people see this event tonight as a celebratory occasion, part of a long process of honoring LGBT individuals and organizations who have contributed to 'our community.' But for us, this event is full of tragic ironies. At the very point when there seems to be a 'consensus' that 'the AIDS crisis is over,' a point of view with which we profoundly disagree, it finally seems 'safe' enough, 'distant' enough, to include ACT UP/Chicago in the 'official' LGBT pantheon. To us, however, this occasion is more like a political funeral.

"What does it mean if any of us in this room congratulate ourselves on 'finally' recognizing ACT UP/Chicago as part of the 'official history' of the Chicago LGBT community? or of 'finally' being recognized by the City of Chicago?

"Each of us here yearns for our communities to honor the memory of ACT UP/Chicago. We all want to see this activism encoded, and not erased, from a chapter of militant queer history and the struggle for social justice in this country. But ACT UP/Chicago can never be adequately honored by a plaque, just as ACT UP can never be represented by any of us as individuals. It is not appropriate for any one of us to accept an award on the behalf of a dead organization.

"But we can bear witness. We each have stories to tell..."